You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:13

I am embarking on a journey that is putting God first and myself second. I am spending some time alone: to embrace God’s love and be more grounded to hear his message; to take care of my own emotional, spiritual and physical needs; and to heal.
This evening on the 5 hr drive up to my dads (where I will be spending the next 2 weeks ), I stopped at my favorite restaurant and enjoyed dinner for 1. I centered myself: aware of the conversation going on around me; watching the other patrons eating their meals; and savoring every bite of my delicious meal. What an experience….it was ok to sit there and be me. A step on my journey to being at peace sitting alone.
YUMMY!
After dinner, I walked the shores of Lake Huron. I steadied my breathing; opened my eyes; opened my ears; and I took in all the sights, sounds and smells of the beautiful evening on the beach. Peace.

A lot has happened in my life in the past days/weeks/months/years. Most recently, I made the choice to end my 8 month relationship. I have never been the one who decides to end things, and I foolishly thought it would be easier than being left. I was wrong. It’s different but it’s not easier. After a lot of time in prayer, I knew God was supporting me in my feelings that I need some time alone. To focus on me. To focus on my kids. And to work through and finish healing from my recent past hurt. Allowing myself time to feel, grieve, and heal from my last breakup in October is necessary if I’m ever going to be emotionally available to someone else. And I know that and accept that. I am also at a place in life where the energy I have I am ready to use to spend time and enjoy my kids, become more active in the church and work on a couple personal goals. I am excited to see what the future holds for me. The sky’s the limit!

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