Saturday was supposed to be the day my kids and I celebrated Easter together. My relationship with my 2 oldest daughters is still uncertain. Sitting here, I find myself hoping my girls will choose to spend part of the Holiday with me. Thinking, if I had only known last Easter was the last my girls…… Continue reading If I had only known…
Author: lifelovinggod
Gut wrenching
As I am writing this post, I am overcome with emotions. Sadness. Fear. Anxiety. Anger. The past 2 weeks have evolved into a wakeup call as to just how complex it is to parent adult dependent children. My daughter is 18 and graduated (early) from high school yesterday. In the past couple years, since her…… Continue reading Gut wrenching
Life is like a ball of yarn
Lately, in the mess of co-parenting with a nacissist, struggling with boundaries parenting adult (dependent) children, exhausted from virtual school and work, navigating life’s stress in a new relationship that is passing the “honeymoon” period, I feel like a twisted knotted ball of yarn being whipped around in a violent wind storm. Beaten. Ragged. Exhausted.…… Continue reading Life is like a ball of yarn
Look in the Mirror
Reflection of imperfection Shadows of darkness Powerful. Screaming. Deafening. You are not worthy You are not loved You are weak You are insecure You are wrong You don’t deserve the truth You made me hurt you Deception of the masked enemy Disguised in emotional abuse by my love Unrelenting. Painful. Confusion. Drowning out the love…… Continue reading Look in the Mirror
Be Bold. Be Brave. Be Courageous. Joshua 1:9
Last night was an amazing night. In love and trust, I stepped out of the shadows of my past. Shadows that fueled the enemy. Shadows that told me “you are not good enough”, “no one wants to be seen with you”, “why would any man want to introduce you to the important people in his…… Continue reading Be Bold. Be Brave. Be Courageous. Joshua 1:9
Forever Still
A breath of cool, crisp, damp air, Quietly awakens my body, mind and soul Each deep breath brings serenity and peace Each slow exhale releases fear and worry Welcoming the peace of God’s creation Purple, orange, pink God’s canvas laid across the sky Gently I close my eyes Forever remebering the beauty abound The taste…… Continue reading Forever Still
About Me
As I write this I am sitting in my chair, looking out the window, and thanking God for the gift of another day. I am writing this blog as a way to share some of my life experiences that led to finding my relationship with God. I am not an expert. I am not a…… Continue reading About Me
Blessings
Close your eyes and think about a song you love. Can you hear it? Does it bring back memories? Are you feeling all the feels? Wow, it is amazing that a song can touch someone at his or her core. Even more remarkable, is the way a song can touch one’s soul. Whew! I have…… Continue reading Blessings
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